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Discovery & Fischer

sometimes you just need to get out.

about a week and a half ago, i put something on Facebook asking around if anyone could model for me, and my friend fischer came through. we explored discovery park, which was pretty cool, because i had never been there before! i had such an awesome time, and i was good practice for me as well!

enjoy.












have love.

DON'T WONDER, JUST DO.

life is too fucking short to wonder & never take a chance.

So, lately my heart has been heavy with my passions as a photographer. I'm feeling so good, and just happy with where my work is going. I know I don't have a lot to show right now, but getting back into the groove of blogging has really motivated me to want more with my work in this creative field. It's seriously so R-A-D to be asking people over Facebook or whatever to see if they would like to do a shoot with me, and a few have said yes! Which is 100% the best. 

I've been studying other photographers work to get inspired, and motivated on where I would personally like for my work to go, and I feel like I've gotten to the point to really show people what I can pull off. 

Recently I read this blog from Andria Linquist, Conductor of your own Train, she talks about owning her own business, not letting "the man" be your boss, and not to be afraid to grab your life by the horns and say "life is too short to wonder and never take a chance. HOLY SHIT, you know, she's right? I remember when I was a senior in high school, not really knowing what I wanted to do with my life quite yet.. BUT I remember that I was saying no to becoming a nurse, and taking the "essential" classes to get me there. I mean, I knew, and still know I have it in me to become someone as wonderful as a nurse, but there was something else that was gnawing at the back of my head telling me to say no the all of that. 

you dont even know what you’re missing yet. once you have it, there’s no going back. never handing back the reigns. 

- andria lindquist

I like to think that I could be a creative person.. I mean I was/still am a musician (i've put down my clarinet, but that don't mean I still can't play), I made homemade cards for my best friends birthdays, and I really got into photography, and that thought of wanting to become someone who has a "stable" job making a lot of money just didn't appeal to me anymore. So, I put an end to that. I let go of that passion, let go of the relationship that I had at the time (thank you), and I just needed to be me, and make fucking mistakes, and FEEL EMOTIONS. I had such a stable thing going on, and I needed it all to change. Being someone that can be creative, was my goal, and ultimately still is my goal. I figured it out... I really wanted to be a photo journalist. I can't say that the  journalist part is still a burning passion (as i write my heart out on this blog... lol), but photography is. The desire is on fire right now. I really want to put myself out there, and I'm taking everything that I learned from my mentor in high school (Kim Robbins), and my favorite photographer (Andria Lindquist), and apply it all to what I want to do. 

Anyway.. I just wanted to share that. I have been thinking about it all weekend, and I needed to share it somewhere, and I was trying t figure out the right time to share it on here, and then I started to get technical about it, like if I should have a photo to go with the text, should I incorporate this emotions into a shoot. I don't know, but here it is. OUT IN THE OPEN! 

Tell me though..

What are your passions? Would you, or are you pursuing them?

hava love,

b.

Happy Thanksgiving!

Pikes Place Market, Seattle, Washington

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Take a look at my instagram to see what I've got to say about the holiday.

So, I've recently been gifted Adobe LR6, and VSCO 01. 

I'm pretty freaking STOKED. I hope everyone enjoys my images from here on out, cause it's about to get beautiful. 

over and out!

my mom delivered!

So, backstory: I reposted something on Facebook a while ago, and it was about Mexican food. I'm half hispanic, so I immediately had to repost it, and tell the world about how I miss it, and how I haven't had Mexican food from Washington, because for whatever reason I think that it isn't as "authentic". Anyway, my mom asked me what kind of pan dulce I wanted, and I didn't reply in time, so she sent me two whole bags of bread! Oh goodness I'm so happy, and the smell just reminds me of my childhood. Anyway! this was such a short post, but I wanted to share it. 

I'm feeling the love a little extra right now.

Have love.

MOVEMENT

Today I had a moment.

I was at work, and all of a sudden majority of my employees walk into the back of the store, and I got this really overwhelming feeling. I think it was sadness. Just seeing all of these people that I hired, and worked so hard to develop in front of me made me feel like a proud mama. I almost cried.

I'm being transferred to a different store, which quite frankly is going to give me so much more experience as a manager, and I'm going to learn from the opportunities that place gives me in the future, so I'm pretty happy about that. However, every time this little group of employee's come into the store I always have the best time, and it really makes me reflect on how well I did as a manager with training them, and it really makes me think about how badly I'm going to miss them.

So, I want to talk about movement from the people you have grown to really care about. It is so hard. I remember when I first moved to Washington, I was just sad for a few months. It was really hard for me to cope with the fact that I wasn't going to be near my parents, or my brother as often anymore. I was never a problem child, and I got along with my parents, and my little bother. I mean, my brother, and I have only gotten in one fight in our entire lives together, it was awful, and we cried, AND we were in our late teens years, so there were a ton of emotions. SO, how do you cope with that? I've had to learn from myself, and from others to be able to move on from these feelings, and I still somewhat struggle with it to this day. I miss my best friends especially right now, and I find it really odd how distance really made my heart grow even more fonder than it already was for them. My best friends are two amazing individuals, and I love them so much. Dani, and I have been best friends for a little over 10 years, and Jeffrey and I have been best friends since I want to say 2012 or 2013? But we just became this amazing trio of friends, and I am so happy that it happened. I don't even think that we even said goodbye when I first moved to Washington, but then when I went to California for my honey moon with John, and the three of us were together, it made things very difficult to deal with the fact that these people were here in my presence, and I wish I spent more time with them.

I guess maybe I'm saying that I've felt lonely outside of being with my husband, because I don't really have all that many friends where I live, and that really gets to me. That's why it's been somewhat of a huge milestone to hang out with people outside of work, and when I mean 'hang out' I don't mean parties/kickbacks, i mean having awesome conversations, and dinners as an actual adult. I've always wondered when that would happen... Having "adult" friends, and quite frankly I feel like I am just barely getting into having friends that are mature in my age group. I skipped a lot of years where I had friends in high school, and then when I moved I needed to mature, and move along with my age, and I'm pretty proud of where I am now.

I deal with whatever loneliness I have by asking someone how I can deal with that, going to my husband, and just accepting it. I'm still working on this whole finding friends thing, and making sure I don't get too attached to the humans that come into my life, whether it's through work or not.

How do you deal with moving on from different parts of your life?  Comment below!

have love.

I took the photo above. It is a building on the University of Washington Campus.

I'M FEELING WHOLE, OR FULL, YOU KNOW THAT WARM FUZZY FEELING?

Now, I'm not one to talk about my personal life to the general public, but this is my blog, so I might as well just put myself out there anyway. I want to talk about my friendships, new and old. Let me start by sharing that I truly love all of my friends, no really, I legitimately love them, and it's not the "oh you've been my friend for x amount of years, and you deserve an I love you." I genuinely care for my friends in my life, and I'm not sure if it's because I have so little 'close' friends or if that's just how I am. I could go further, but I immensely care for these people.

Over the years in my young life I feel as if I've learned a lot about being a friend, or a best friend to someone, and I always ask myself if they really feel the same towards me. I over analyze it from time to time, and if I am honest I tend to look a tad deeper into the meaning everything in my life, I stress out about it a lot, and that is called... anxiety, what a party pooper. Anyways. As a friend I really feel like I can potentially be a pretty good one, it could be because I'm pretty selfless, I've learned heartbreak (romantically, and non-romantically), I have certainly learned the value of life (whether it was my own or someone else's), I feel like I can understand where someone else is coming from most of the time, I'm uncommonly patient. I don't know, but the reason why I'm making this post is because I had such an amazing time yesterday with FRIENDS, I literally cannot get the fuck over it.

So, my friend Aubrey and I made plans to go out and take photos, and can I just say that I have never felt so welcome as a person into someone's life. I mean at least it felt that way. We met up in U Village, and said hi to Sarina (who Aubrey has known for quite some time, and I've know her since the end of 14', but I love her!). Aubrey was, essentially, my personal tour guide, and she showed me around the University of Washington Campus, we took photos, and walked around the neighborhoods surrounding the school. we also went out to dinner in Ballard, which was a lot of fun, and I had one of the best burgers I've had in a long time. I really, really enjoyed her company, and honestly it was the best time I've had since my god damn wedding. I felt like I could be myself, take some pictures, talk about my personal life, which ahem doesn't happen very often with just anyone, and it was just super awesome.

I've also been waiting to see my friend Fischer. He's such an awesome guy, and one of the best people I can talk to about pretty much anything. Since I was in the surrounding downtown area I wanted to stop by and see him. It was super funny, cause I knew he was working, and I don't think that either of us anticipated me getting into downtown so quickly, so here I was just aimlessly driving around downtown Seattle waiting for him to get out of work. So many explicitives, and giggles were happening as I was driving around by myself. So, i pick him up, and first we try to find parking near his apartment, which in hindsight could have been a lot easier, but no. We catch up on our lives, laugh about stupid reality shows, and reminisce on the past. It was so nice just seeing a familiar face, and it felt like a little bit of home. So, thank you Fischer. 

Yesterday was so perfect, because for me being so far from all of my friends in California is difficult. I miss all of them, and I wish I was in California to see their accomplishments. However, being with these amazing people yesterday really made me feel more grounded and whole. It was an amazing feeling not having to stress, and not having to worry about what the other person thinks of you. I really am so thankful for those moments that I could share with them, because saying that I have friends is not a very common thing to say for me, and I really struggle with calling people my friends, because like I said, I over analyze everything, so my mind always tells me that some friendships are only temporary. I'll keep fighting for some to be permanent though. 

I look forward to more fun times, and just being better friends with Aubrey, Fischer, or whoever else. I hope making friends gets easier for me, and honestly I just have to find my kind of people, and just have fun being 'me' with them. 

Have Love, AND FRIENDS!