I AM REALLY HAPPY.

Thank you John for taking my photos.

Yesterday was such a lazy day. It mostly consisted of napping, trying to get on the wifi at John's house, and then going to dinner at John's grandparents house. So this damn wifi.. I wanted to put yesterday's post on earlier so that I could do this current post last night, but unfortunately I couldn't. Needless to say, it was incredibly  frustrating, so I took a nap. John took these photos right before we went to his grandparents house, and I am so pleased with the way they came out! And he, of course, seemed happy about them too, especially that first one, it was a nice candid photo, and I'm glad he got it! So after our little shoot, we went to his grandparents house where we were greeted by aunts, uncles, his parents, and grandparents. They are all lovely people, and I fell in love with them instantly. They seemed so welcoming, and happy towards me. It was also pretty neat to hear all of their accents. Oh yeah, John's dad's side of the family are all from Scotland, pretty cool right?! So, yeah, I felt comfortable with them, and I was so happy. I am always happy with John, there really isn't a dull moment with him, and I am so happy that I'm his girlfriend. I have never wanted to be with someone so badly, or make them the happiest they can ever be, and I know I have found him. 

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Outfit Details:

Tank Top: H&M (similar tank)

Jeans: Target, clearance

Flats: Target (ballet flats)

Friday Snow Day

So, Friday.

I didn't do a whole lot, except go to school, go see John, which always makes me happy, and he and I went on a double date with his friend Jared, and Jared's lady, Katie. It snowed over where I live, and I live in the "high desert" of California, so I'm at about 3000 feet in elevation. I was almost worried that I wasn't going to make it to school that day, because of the snow, but thankfully it melted in time for me to leave. I get to school, and it was a pretty easy day. I only have one class right now, because I'm on academic probation, which sucks, but I am trying to make the best of it. After that I head on over to John's, we wait around his place, which included taking a nap, and him messing with my camera, taking the most random, and not so flattering photos of myself. Punk. So dinner came along, and we went to Panera, which was nice, because I love meeting John's friends, and I love Panera. (i got a fuji apple salad, yum). After dinner was done we headed out to watch the film "Oz". It was neat to see how The Wizard of Oz came to the land of Oz, and now it makes me want to watch The Wizard of Oz again now that I know some back story! So, that was my day. Not a lot, but it was fun, always fun. 

Outfit Details:
Beanie
Scarf: Forever 21
Black Sweater: Target
Tanktop: H&M
Shorts: Ross
Boots: Ross
Tights

Photo Credits:
Thomas (brother)
Me
John

Olivera St.

John took me to Olivera Street for the fist time this past weekend, and needless to say I loved it. We took the Gold Line to Union Station, because the street is literally right across the way from the station. This was also my first time riding a train in years, and it was interesting to see all the different people that rode the train. It was so nice to see things that my mother may have grown up on, or what my grandparents grew up on back when they were younger. I'm half Mexican, but I don't know a lot about the Mexican culture, mostly because ever since my grandparents passed I kind of just strayed away from any reminders of how things were when they took care of my cousins, and I. When I went to Olivera Street I was reminded of my Nino and his shoes that he wore, and it was just constant waves of nostalgia, and joy. I miss being with my family, and how things were when my grandparents were alive, because it honestly felt like they were the glue that kept the family together. 

Aside all of that, I had so much fun with John! We had some food, he bought me a shirt (which I adore!), poked fun at various things, and just enjoyed each others company along with the people of the area. Hopefully more adventures to come! Along with more photos, promise.

Have Love

I will not be ashamed.

I have changed a lot in the last year. I went from being a size 8 girl, who only cared about her image, and how men saw her to a size 10-12 girl who has gained more confidence, in herself image, because she didn't give two fuck about what people thought. I know that I've changed, because I can feel it in my bones. I'm not ashamed of my thick legs, my slightly chubby waist, or my arms. All that matters is that I should feel good, and I do.

I hate it when women focus solely on being skinny, starving themselves, or even working out so much that they forget what they were getting fit for. If you're going to diet, or work out, do it for YOURSELF, and not for anyone else. Don't do it for the looks, whistles, or anything like that, because it's what you think of yourself, and how you feel when you look in that mirror. I've learned that when you workout for people, or if you lose weight for people, you lose yourself, and you start to self loath yourself, and women or even men shouldn't do that. 

Learn to love yourself, and do what you want to do to please yourself.

 If friends, or anyone else judges you for doing what YOU want to do, then they don't belong in your life, and if you allow them to shoot you down or keep judging you, then you need to get them out of your life, because all they are, are toxic. 

Have love, and everything good will follow. Surround yourself with people that will not judge you for being who you want to be, and you will be happy. I guarantee it.

Have Love Darlin'

A Small Update

Literally now, like actually yesterday. My hair is cut, and my pink is gone.

This is here is John, my boyfriend. I am so confident that he is the guy for me, and he isn't going anywhere.

This is it so far.I'll be blogging more, and more. Writing more, and more.