Happy Thanksgiving!

Pikes Place Market, Seattle, Washington

Happy Thanksgiving everyone! Take a look at my instagram to see what I've got to say about the holiday.

So, I've recently been gifted Adobe LR6, and VSCO 01. 

I'm pretty freaking STOKED. I hope everyone enjoys my images from here on out, cause it's about to get beautiful. 

over and out!

my mom delivered!

So, backstory: I reposted something on Facebook a while ago, and it was about Mexican food. I'm half hispanic, so I immediately had to repost it, and tell the world about how I miss it, and how I haven't had Mexican food from Washington, because for whatever reason I think that it isn't as "authentic". Anyway, my mom asked me what kind of pan dulce I wanted, and I didn't reply in time, so she sent me two whole bags of bread! Oh goodness I'm so happy, and the smell just reminds me of my childhood. Anyway! this was such a short post, but I wanted to share it. 

I'm feeling the love a little extra right now.

Have love.

MOVEMENT

Today I had a moment.

I was at work, and all of a sudden majority of my employees walk into the back of the store, and I got this really overwhelming feeling. I think it was sadness. Just seeing all of these people that I hired, and worked so hard to develop in front of me made me feel like a proud mama. I almost cried.

I'm being transferred to a different store, which quite frankly is going to give me so much more experience as a manager, and I'm going to learn from the opportunities that place gives me in the future, so I'm pretty happy about that. However, every time this little group of employee's come into the store I always have the best time, and it really makes me reflect on how well I did as a manager with training them, and it really makes me think about how badly I'm going to miss them.

So, I want to talk about movement from the people you have grown to really care about. It is so hard. I remember when I first moved to Washington, I was just sad for a few months. It was really hard for me to cope with the fact that I wasn't going to be near my parents, or my brother as often anymore. I was never a problem child, and I got along with my parents, and my little bother. I mean, my brother, and I have only gotten in one fight in our entire lives together, it was awful, and we cried, AND we were in our late teens years, so there were a ton of emotions. SO, how do you cope with that? I've had to learn from myself, and from others to be able to move on from these feelings, and I still somewhat struggle with it to this day. I miss my best friends especially right now, and I find it really odd how distance really made my heart grow even more fonder than it already was for them. My best friends are two amazing individuals, and I love them so much. Dani, and I have been best friends for a little over 10 years, and Jeffrey and I have been best friends since I want to say 2012 or 2013? But we just became this amazing trio of friends, and I am so happy that it happened. I don't even think that we even said goodbye when I first moved to Washington, but then when I went to California for my honey moon with John, and the three of us were together, it made things very difficult to deal with the fact that these people were here in my presence, and I wish I spent more time with them.

I guess maybe I'm saying that I've felt lonely outside of being with my husband, because I don't really have all that many friends where I live, and that really gets to me. That's why it's been somewhat of a huge milestone to hang out with people outside of work, and when I mean 'hang out' I don't mean parties/kickbacks, i mean having awesome conversations, and dinners as an actual adult. I've always wondered when that would happen... Having "adult" friends, and quite frankly I feel like I am just barely getting into having friends that are mature in my age group. I skipped a lot of years where I had friends in high school, and then when I moved I needed to mature, and move along with my age, and I'm pretty proud of where I am now.

I deal with whatever loneliness I have by asking someone how I can deal with that, going to my husband, and just accepting it. I'm still working on this whole finding friends thing, and making sure I don't get too attached to the humans that come into my life, whether it's through work or not.

How do you deal with moving on from different parts of your life?  Comment below!

have love.

I took the photo above. It is a building on the University of Washington Campus.

I'M FEELING WHOLE, OR FULL, YOU KNOW THAT WARM FUZZY FEELING?

Now, I'm not one to talk about my personal life to the general public, but this is my blog, so I might as well just put myself out there anyway. I want to talk about my friendships, new and old. Let me start by sharing that I truly love all of my friends, no really, I legitimately love them, and it's not the "oh you've been my friend for x amount of years, and you deserve an I love you." I genuinely care for my friends in my life, and I'm not sure if it's because I have so little 'close' friends or if that's just how I am. I could go further, but I immensely care for these people.

Over the years in my young life I feel as if I've learned a lot about being a friend, or a best friend to someone, and I always ask myself if they really feel the same towards me. I over analyze it from time to time, and if I am honest I tend to look a tad deeper into the meaning everything in my life, I stress out about it a lot, and that is called... anxiety, what a party pooper. Anyways. As a friend I really feel like I can potentially be a pretty good one, it could be because I'm pretty selfless, I've learned heartbreak (romantically, and non-romantically), I have certainly learned the value of life (whether it was my own or someone else's), I feel like I can understand where someone else is coming from most of the time, I'm uncommonly patient. I don't know, but the reason why I'm making this post is because I had such an amazing time yesterday with FRIENDS, I literally cannot get the fuck over it.

So, my friend Aubrey and I made plans to go out and take photos, and can I just say that I have never felt so welcome as a person into someone's life. I mean at least it felt that way. We met up in U Village, and said hi to Sarina (who Aubrey has known for quite some time, and I've know her since the end of 14', but I love her!). Aubrey was, essentially, my personal tour guide, and she showed me around the University of Washington Campus, we took photos, and walked around the neighborhoods surrounding the school. we also went out to dinner in Ballard, which was a lot of fun, and I had one of the best burgers I've had in a long time. I really, really enjoyed her company, and honestly it was the best time I've had since my god damn wedding. I felt like I could be myself, take some pictures, talk about my personal life, which ahem doesn't happen very often with just anyone, and it was just super awesome.

I've also been waiting to see my friend Fischer. He's such an awesome guy, and one of the best people I can talk to about pretty much anything. Since I was in the surrounding downtown area I wanted to stop by and see him. It was super funny, cause I knew he was working, and I don't think that either of us anticipated me getting into downtown so quickly, so here I was just aimlessly driving around downtown Seattle waiting for him to get out of work. So many explicitives, and giggles were happening as I was driving around by myself. So, i pick him up, and first we try to find parking near his apartment, which in hindsight could have been a lot easier, but no. We catch up on our lives, laugh about stupid reality shows, and reminisce on the past. It was so nice just seeing a familiar face, and it felt like a little bit of home. So, thank you Fischer. 

Yesterday was so perfect, because for me being so far from all of my friends in California is difficult. I miss all of them, and I wish I was in California to see their accomplishments. However, being with these amazing people yesterday really made me feel more grounded and whole. It was an amazing feeling not having to stress, and not having to worry about what the other person thinks of you. I really am so thankful for those moments that I could share with them, because saying that I have friends is not a very common thing to say for me, and I really struggle with calling people my friends, because like I said, I over analyze everything, so my mind always tells me that some friendships are only temporary. I'll keep fighting for some to be permanent though. 

I look forward to more fun times, and just being better friends with Aubrey, Fischer, or whoever else. I hope making friends gets easier for me, and honestly I just have to find my kind of people, and just have fun being 'me' with them. 

Have Love, AND FRIENDS!

Self Inspire, right?

Whenever I make a post, I always feel the need to look at my favorite bloggers, and photographers, to see how they post their lives on the web. I don't know why I feel the need to binge search my favorite creative humans, so I can be inspired, and so that i can get my ass into gear to work on my creative self. These women, and men are so dang awesome, and successful, and I tend to thrive on their own creative selves, and not focus on my own creative self. The unfocused me realized this when I posted something on Facebook about how I need to get behind the lens, and start taking pictures of people again, and when I posted that I was looking for encouragement. Sure ONLY 11 people liked it, and a few people commented on it, BUT what hit me was my mother-in-laws comment. She told me that I was too talented to not be doing that. I AGREE SO HARD. I am fucking talented, and I gave up A LOT of what I was "good" at to pursue my passions in photography, and I am still NOT doing it professionally as I wanted.

I get to hang out with a friend in Seattle, or wherever we go, tomorrow. I'm looking forward to getting some amazing work done, and I'm going to push myself to show the world, whatever I have to offer. 

Anyway. I need to figure out a way to motivate myself. I need to be independent on this aspect of my life, because I was. 

have love,

Britt